I've been crying a lot lately. It's ironic because i'm the happiest that i've ever been.

But it hurts so much to know that I need to hurt you to be happy. Why can't you understand me?

 Why can't you trust me? When I was younger I used to think that growing up would solve it, but i'm 21 now 

and you get more paranoid each day. 
Is it normal to feel guilty about being happy? Wish you could see my point of view, 

wish you could understand me...